So I got through my time without porn. Did I succeed? Technically. I’m sure if I would be as critical of myself as I usually am, it would be a complete failure, but in the end I did indeed keep away from the porn throughout my Lent. By it’s definition, pornography is the portrayal of explicit sexual acts for the purpose of sexual arousal or exotic satisfaction. And there’s nothing pornographic or sexual about the nude female form and appreciating it for what it is. Anyone who has the gall to say otherwise needs to get their head out of their ass. Sure, some of the material may have pushed it, but I’m not going to be as critical of myself, so boo to you.
Took some hard thinking on this next 4o Days & Nights of mine, hence why it took so long to make this official written notice. That and the fact I’m having financial issues along with jury duty, but as it goes. Going to have to be something simple while I continue to work things out, yet still a big part of what has always been my comfort zone through the hard times. So I’m sorry Chocolate, my dear retreat of goodness, you and I will have to pass on seeing each other for awhile.
Chocolate and I got way back, though it’s got a history much more impressive than my own. Growing up as the fat kid (or the not really fat kid who became fat because of wretched living), it was a tasty escape from it all and still is to this day. It’s certainly hard to get away from as well, considering most stores have candy bars waiting for you at checkout. And when I think on the fact chocolate was once considered a rare treat, it freaks me out seeing so much of it around at arm’s length. So while keeping chocolate out of my diet will be hard due to my appreciative taste buds and the constant presence of it, it can and will be done for the betterment of my health.
Not only that, but it saves my wallet in the long run. A favorite of mine are caramel clusters of any kind of nuts, which can be as simple as those cheap $1-3 chocolates you get from Walgreens, all the way to $5-9 if you get any of the fine chocolates from a bakery. I’ve seriously seen four pieces of this chocolate in a container for $9, and while I can say that it’s insane…I think I bought it? Sure, it was nice, but that was a bad decision on my part. Looking back, I’ve never been in a position to buy such chocolates my entire time here in Milwaukee, even if the logic of, “You live only once,” comes up. “Live and learn,” is more like it.
I’ll likely engorge myself on the other sweets that clutter the world around me, and I’ve already eaten quite a few doughnuts when the option is presented to me. And while I know they are about, I’m not going to bother worrying about foods created from cacao, because I’d likely drive myself insane, even if it’s not the full on practice of a vegan. I got enough stress in my head to worry about what’s in this or that. Chocolate is chocolate, plain and simple. I’ll leave the vegan troubles I’ll likely have for later on in life. Yeah, I’ll give it a shot at some point (did it before), though I kind of need to feed myself now and not spend a lot on substitutes for meat and other products. Just thinking on it is giving me chills (the money issues, not the lifestyle itself, so back off).
Needless to say, I’m looking forward to some chocolate caramel nut clusters as soon as this is done, which is the morning of October 21, 2011. Yes, that’s the correct date, because I started in on this before the official notice. Besides, who’s going to judge me on this but myself? Not like the rest of the world cares what the heck I eat. And that is the very reason why it’s so important to me.