40 Days & 40 Nights: Porn

So I finally got through my Lent with Channel Awesome and all related material. It was otherwise an easy task, save the days I noted tweets from the producers or the very last day in which I had another 24 hours to do and thought it was already over. Already caught myself up with a few of the videos I haven’t watched since last month, along with the first part of Suburban Knights. Looking good off the bat, though I’m noting acting mistakes such as shifty eyes, wincing at actions where there should be none, looking at the camera, and other amateur ticks that keep you from delving too deep into the work. Mind you, I’m as amateur as they come, and considering the weight of what they have created, it’s really a non-issue. It’s worth checking out should you enjoy fantasy and pop culture on any level, so….boom!

Now comes the next 40 days & 40 nights…what to do with myself? I thought on that as I watched fellows rip Duke Nukem Forever, and I found it difficult to come up with. Sure, I thought on this before and considered some good options, but the lot of them were too early or improper to be giving up at this time. There’s of course Neopets, which I’ve sadly (gladly?) jumped into again, and it would be yet another Internet item I could lose to gain more time. Despite this I’m currently working on dealings with other users, so dropping it cold turkey as of right now isn’t in the cards. Will possibly be for the next run through, so huzzah for that.

Another big item in my life is the Internet in general, but that’s not happening ever. I’m far too entrenched in its use to let it go. Perhaps that’s the point, but it would mean negative progress rather than positive in my life at this time, so no dice. There’s also chocolate, which is delicious and awesome, but that’s usually only bought once every two weeks, albeit in large quantities. Comic books are viable as well even though I haven’t bought a comic in over half a year, because I read plenty of webcomics. Don’t think this can give me a huge boon to where I want to be, other than applying my memory to something useful rather than several plots through sequential art.

And then it hit me when I began to sort through the clutter of my bookmarks. I was quite surprised when I realized it, because it really is a big part of my life, though I don’t go off thinking of it all the time. Just when the mood strikes me of course, and while that is a lot it’s usually out of mind when not in sight (or have access to my computer). If it isn’t fairly obvious at this point, I am of course talking about pornography. That “dirty” little word that everyone talks about but don’t really talk about.

On my feelings, it’s a nice outlet to stimulate the mind and body when there’s really nothing around to stimulate it otherwise. More so, it’s a medium and word given power due to the current oppressive education model of sex, where it’s not really practiced or spoken of till you’re considered a legal adult, and by that point nobody cares to teach you because you’re a “big boy/girl” now. Sex is a scary thing to a lot of people, and it leads to a lot of hypocrisy because it’s something we all (mostly) crave. As such, porn exists and will always exist, being the primal outlet for others to share and appreciate in something we all do yet don’t really admit to one another.

Not to say that I’m all for porn, but I’m for why it’s there and the hopeful progress which will make people not so opposed and reliant on it. The driving force against porn comes from religion, which is a joke because most religions expect us to mate (preferably with one of the opposite sex). Certain Feminists are opposed as well, while the rest see it as sexual empowerment. Some of their ideas have merit and deserve thought, but it has more to do with the evolution of porn and the human condition than saying, “porn is wrong.” Pornography is a market that’s always going to exist regardless of what laws are enforced, so it’s better to make laws and actions which help develop than hinder. Prohibition brought on incredible crime in 1920-1933, and while I would be a fool to say there wouldn’t be any sex trafficking in an educated world, it wouldn’t be as bad an outcome if porn and sex in general was restricted.

Considering my long years with porn, I think the biggest joke is the fact I never spent a single cent on it. Everything I’ve ever used has been hand-me-downs or freely available. The closest I’ve come to actual payment comes from my Internet fee, but it’s more a side effect than actual intent. Let’s face it: the Internet is for porn. There’s plenty to be had round, and should you find the right locales there’s mountains of crap to see. Sometimes literal crap as well, though that’s never been my thing…and I hope it isn’t yours. Being on the Internet all the time doesn’t help either, because it’s ever so simple when it’s just a few keystrokes away. Being more responsible for myself and my time needs to be examined, and dropping porn seems the best course of action in that regard.

Now even though I’m giving up on the porn through this portion of Lent, this does not mean I’m giving up on the masturbation (yes, there is a Wikipedia article for that with many informative pictures). Hell no! This is merely a reprieve from visual stimuli, and I’ll likely keep on fapping seeing as I’m young dumb and full of cum single man without a booty call. And no, I have no problem admitting that or speaking on the subject, because we all otherwise do it (except women, who also don’t poop). Though I can say you will never see me at a Masturbate-a-thon. Gods no. Though I wouldn’t mind filming it for awesome. But then again there’s a first for everything, so we’ll just see.

And that’s that. Official now till September 1, 2011, my eyes will not willfully see pornography. I cannot be held responsible should someone show me such material or I happen to catch something with my eye, considering sex is everywhere. Even so, I can certainly look away the moment it’s noted. Going to be an interesting run, though I’m keen on giving myself a shock in the weeks to come. As it was with That Guy With The Glasses and company, will certainly put a spin on my Internet activity. Hopefully time will be better spent somewhere else, because again lord knows I need the focus.

Tagged: Lent, Religion, Sex, TGWTG